Callings and destinies

"If you are someone with a strong sense of destiny, can you describe how it feels?  When did you realize the direction you were going to take? Did you encounter opposition?"

"For quite a while now, I’ve felt like I’ve been flailing, unsure where I need to be and what I need to do, only knowing that what I’m currently doing isn’t fulfilling me. Some months ago, I sat down and really took a long heart-looking, soul-searching moment and determined what I NEED in order to feel fulfilled — once I really looked at that, the decision to go in this direction was so painfully obvious that there was no way I could miss it. And when I said, “This is what I’m going to do…” well, like I said, it was like I stopped fighting against the current, and things have been falling into place with stunning rapidity."

"I’ve been called to serve in whatever capacity life needs me. It’s frustrating because there was never an epiphany: “Thou shalt be a lawyer” or a nurse or an artist or what have you; it’s never been that clear-cut. But you know, since I accepted that I’m just an on-call, generally smart and skilled person here to serve, I’m never at a loss of random situations to rescue. So at least there’s that."

"yes. but following it is like searching out bread crumbs. every once in a while i get a strong need to go do one thing or another. and i follow it."

"Speaking of hearing your calling, the soldier told me this weekend that he was called to soldiering similarly to how priests are called to the priesthood.  He described how he tried to avoid it to appease other people but every time he tried to get away he was thrown back to it. Eventually he quit resisting and his relationship with me has followed the same arc.

Yeah, some years ago I used to do all this writing and then recoil from it and react by taking every single thing I have written (1000’s of blogs) down and disappearing for weeks at a time. Each time that was going to be it! Enough of this shit. People attack you, they target you, they hate you, I don’t make so much as a dime doing this and blah blah blah.  I must have thrown in the towel at least 20 times if not twice that.

I have also ran off to the circus a few times (remember when I wrote on Salon?). I’ve also made various threats for various reasons only to have HQ reel me back in before finally coming to terms with what I now feel is my destiny, this writing and the other things I do having to do with astrology both seen and unseen.

My relationship with the soldier? Well that’s obvious. We threw each other back 50 times. We both swore each other off. I tried to kill him with a motorcycle helmet, we both married other people.  I also cut off his email, put his most cherished uniform in the trash, took his pictures off my computer told him he was a lousy bastard and for what?  All to try to avoid what is absolutely inevitable.

I am not sure if everyone has a destiny so specific. If you have a stellium in your chart or a major configuration (like a T-square or a Grand Cross) it’s possible this would indicate a life more hard core, but I don’t know that.  What do you think?

Can fate be avoided?"

"I don’t know if fate can be avoided. I think it goes back to one’s purpose. If you can avoid it, I think it comes at a high price. You can close your eyes and ignore it but it will be a constant battle. It will keep coming back to you. You’ll have spent all your time working at not doing what you were supposed to do. And then you haven’t really lived your life at all."

"I don’t think you can avoid what you are supposed to do or be, but we have free will and you can make it harder, like I always seem to do, by trying to get out of it."

"I think fate can be avoided, and in the process your personal fulfillment can be avoided, too."

"I believe that fate, like the lessons we need to learn, can be avoided, but not indefinitely. We cannot choose our lessons, only the time when we are finally willing to learn them. I think fate is like that. We can put it off, but eventually we will have to embrace it. This is, of course, just a belief. How can we really know?"

"No idea the answer to this question, except that when I set about avoiding the voice/universe/signs get noisier, louder, start to clatter . . . sometimes I’m not ready to pay attention to them, but when I do, they’re all right there, and they have been all along."

"I can’t think of a single instance in which I’ve avoided my fate and gotten away with it. It always comes around, just a matter of time. And the time I spent avoiding is riddled with obstacles/problems that all point to the path I was supposed to take but avoided. It’s akin to the voice inside me going from a whisper, to a two by four, to a club over the head."