Elsa does more on Venus/Saturn

Yay! Maybe she'll do a series!

I could go on and on but if you start to put this together you can see it is nothing but a situation fraught with fear and limitations. Go through all this hell to try to talk to him and he’s going to die anyway, so what the hell? I’m out of here! But was that a mistake?

Well yeah. We think it was and we are paying for it now in ways that are hard to quantify or even express and I’ll give you an example.

And in 2006 when this came up again I spoke with friends and explained how incredibly hard it was to deal with him and his circumstance. All his circumstances. I could (and did) go on and on the reasons why I could not and should not get involved with him but turns out you just can’t avoid your destiny because son of a bitch if I am not doing the exact things I could or would not do 28 years ago. And so is he.

The death thing? Well that’s back too. I was scared he would die then and I face the same fear now. Because he’s nowhere near healthy as I am and in case I didn’t notice I had an astrologer look at his chart and tell when he was going to die… in the not very distant future,
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So what do I do? Ignore the fact I love him due his supposed short life span?
Well I am not going to do that (again) but don’t think it didn’t cross my mind. It did because it’s human nature to try to avoid pain.
But at this point the pain of denying the love while he is alive is worse than the prospect of losing him so I have taken this other road and yes it’s brutal. I mean, come on. Do you know how many coffee dates live in my neighborhood?
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But I don’t want some vapid surface thing, do I? I do not. I want the twists and the turns, the surprise and the intensity. I want the loyalty and the love and the quality of nurturing that can’t be found anywhere but.
And I hope this inspires someone out there. Some person with Venus mashed up with Saturn in their chart. Don’t let them tell you there is no love for you… it’s a lie. The soldier has Venus inconjunct Saturn. Love denied and delayed? Yes.
But he has also been loved (Venus) to the bone (Saturn). Some people don’t even know what that is so considering that you tell me who is bereft.

People get to a point where they want something solid in their life. And if you have not learned (Saturn) to form a relationship (Venus) that has integrity (Saturn) as you get older, I’ll tell you exactly what happens. You get scared. Nobody wants to be alone. As Paul Simon sings, ‘Who’s going to love you when your looks are gone?”

So the Venus Saturn person might spend a lot of years out in the rain, working on their house while everyone else is humping along in their straw huts that are ready to blow. But as with everything “Saturn”, time is on their side. Venus Saturn toils and toils and toils and toils and if they keep it up, eventually someone with an eye for quality happens by and support forms.