Interesting reading on Elsa
Not related to any major themes around here of late, just interesting reads.
This made me laugh:
I can't say I am all yay about those particular aspects going on going into this weekend (have to be around Mom again)...we're "getting along" for now but I expect explosion. Especially since Mars/Saturn somehow always seemed to be a "Katie Kaboom" sort of thing in the family.
And this is interesting: an Aquarian who somehow always blows it when s/he makes it to the first flute chair:
Regardless of its nature, when you have a pattern this well established it’s a safe bet you are going to have to work very hard to change it. It’s as if you have cut a path and you can be sure to fall right into it every time… if a struggle for consciousness is not made. As to the specifics of what is driving all this, I can see a couple components right off the bat.
First you have Venus in Capricorn, which gives an innate feeling of unworthiness as well as both a fear of failure AND success. This is probably subconscious to a degree but you can see it play out in that you make sure one way or the other that you do not hold that top position.
Now you also have Mars in aspect to Neptune, which tends to dissolve the drive when a person does not act consciously. For example, your music did not arrive on schedule, but why not go hunt it down?
If you can focus on and resolve just these two things, you would be well on your way to solving your problem and I can also tell you that that victim position will never, ever, ever work. In other words, your “close but no cigar” pattern is not due an oppressive force outside yourself.
