More Saturn talk

Not sure what to make of it, but it's interesting.

I don’t doubt your observations but my experiences are contrary this possibly because Saturn is well aspected in my natal and rules the chart? In whatever case, specific to this situation, I was given this love when I was very young and I did not “do the right thing” as they say. This does not mean I did not think I did the right thing because in many ways I felt I did. I have a pretty confused Saturn so who knows! But looking back with matured perspective, I was just afraid and I let my fear rule my decisions which is never a good idea. I do wish I’d have taken a gamble… a leap of faith because had I done so, it would definitely have paid off. But I had good reason to be wary.

I’d just pulled off the coup of a lifetime. I knew I’d been lucky to have done so, should I push it? I didn’t think I should push it. I looked all over for a sign or some kind of support and found none.