North node in Libra

What does that mean?

"The Achilles’ heel Libra North Node people need to be aware of is selfishness (“My survival depends on looking out for myself first, and others should make sure my needs are met regardless of anyone else’s concerns”). But it’s a bottomless pit: if they feel that others have to constantly fill their needs for them to feel safe and connected, they will find that they always need more attention and energy just to feel okay. They need to find partners whom they can give to, who will feel so energized that they naturally fill Libra North Node’s cup in appreciation. Satisfaction lies in connecting with people who see them for who they are, appreciate them, and want to give back to them.

The trap they need to avoid is an unending search for independence (“If I can just be self-sufficient enough, I’ll have the confidence to relate successfully with others and I won’t feel so lonely”). Life has shown Libra North Node people that accomplishments and independence do not make them feel complete. The bottom line is that they’ll never feel a strong enough sense of self to become part of a team. At some point they need to take the risk of losing themselves in supporting another person. The irony is that once they start unselfishly suppoting someone else, they begin to feel the joy and glory of their true self shining through."

Oh yeah, that is so right on. Especially the "unending search for independence" bit. And supporting other people has just fried my fucking brains so far.

This bit made me laugh, though:

"Throughout all those warrior lifetimes, these folks lost touch with love, with the ability to work with other people. Thus, they came into this lifetime feeling awkward about cooperation and relating to others. But they shouldn't worry, because their entire chart is set up to reconnect with people. As long as they are clear about where they're going, old habits won't get in their way. In fact, this entire lifetime is about partnership for them—and there will be no lack of opportunity to get it straight, because opportunities for marriages and partnerships will come to them easily."

Hah hah hah fucking hah.

"Sharing is important for Libra North Node people. They've had many past lifetimes of isolation and missing the joys of having a mate. In this lifetime, their desire to have a mate is enormous; it needs to be honored for them to feel complete and nurtured emotionally. An unselfish love, with no thought of personal reward, is the key to actualizing the closeness and rapport that will fill their hearts. They need to give simply for the sake of sharing their wealth and bringing support and joy to their partner. Then, as the other person gains strength, his or her happiness will in turn permeate and satisfy the Libra North Node person.
Owing to so many past incarnations as warriors, these folks have developed a trait of inaccessibility. They are very selective about the image they project, and if people see them differently, they become upset. They try to control how people see them: "How could they say that about me? That's not how I see myself!" This defensiveness makes it tough for other people to relate to them.
Libra North Node people may indulge in unexpected behavior, because they don't want others to be able to figure them out. It's a tactical maneuver. Fearing that people won't find them interesting, they resist being completely "known." Also, this nodal group regards all the other groups as the same, and they don't want to be like everyone else. They're afraid that exposing their emotions and checking in with people will make them like everyone else — and they won't be different and exciting anymore."

I do get annoyed when people tell me that I came off like I was angry or something. Especially when I was like, in some totally bland mode. "Um, no I wasn't..." gets me nowhere with them, unfortunately.

Yeah, the last paragraph is dead on.

But...notice that like, ALL of the examples of LNN people in this are just these horrible, heartless, mean assholes? Seriously? Like, here's the NICEST example of such a person so far:

"Generally it works better when the Libra North Node asks the other person questions first and then states his or her position. The tendency is to say immediately: "Well, I would like to have a marriage where there are no children and both partners work and make lots of money. What would you like?" If the other person wants to please, he or she will give a response that can be interpreted as supportive of the Libra North Node's position.
But this is how these folks get into trouble. Their identity carries so much strength that the other person may sidestep a direct confrontation because it could put an end to the connection. Others will generally yield, either by understating the importance of their own position or by "going along" with what the Libra North Node person wants.
I had a Libra North Node client whose experience illustrates this problem very well. In his second marriage he was tremendously in love with his wife, who was twelve years his junior. He had one child from his first marriage, and he and his second wife had agreed that they would not have children. This was his idea, but she talked herself into it because she loved him so much. Once the agreement had been reached (which he considered to be "mutual"), he had a vasectomy. The marriage seemed "on track" for the first four years, and he was very happy. Then came the traumatic weekend when she asked for a divorce because she wanted children. The marriage was filling his needs, but not hers. He was traumatized, and it took him years to recover emotionally from the experience. Disappointment for both parties could have been avoided if my client had taken the time to truly ascertain his partner's desires. Then he could have decided if he loved her enough to compromise his original preference in order to satisfy her need for a child."

Well, isn't that HER issue just as much as his? If she wanted babies, the time to say that would have been oh, around the time he made the appointment for the snip, at least. I don't think she was so "cowed" that she couldn't speak at all, for chrissake. Sorry, but it's also HER responsibility to speak up, it's not just HIS fault that he didn't get all sneaky and suss out that she wanted babies when she told him otherwise. Besides, when he said, "I don't want more," it was her responsibility to say, "Gimme babies or I walk" at the START rather than "Well, um, I guess I could go without..." Dumbass. Okay, now I'm just all ANGRY reading this.

"Libra North Node people don't understand why others put up with being treated badly. They don't understand how much someone can love another, and they fear passion and bonding. They are afraid that if they truly love someone, it may lead them to a place that isn't good for them."

Well, it HAS led me to a place that wasn't good for me. My brains dribbled out my ear and I acted like a moron. See below:

"Libra North Node people often attract partners who have tremendous potential but who lack the self-confidence to convert that potential and reach their goals. Often, these are people to whom they owe a "debt" from a past life. Perhaps the other person sacrificed self-identity and helped them to win in some way, and now it is up to them to return the favor.
On some level these folks know this is a "partnership" lifetime, and they actively seek a mate. But they keep attracting people weaker than themselves, which can make them angry and resentful."

Oh lord, yes. The last ex in a nutshell there. The longer things went on, the more I just lost all sympathy for "But it's so haaaaaaaaard!" Yeah, realistically it probably was too hard for him to get his shit together given where he came from and his lack of resources. But on the other hand, I sure as fuck wasn't going to backtrack so I could stay on his level, because his level was awful, and at the time I didn't want to break up, so what other option was there? (Besides, he lived a few hours away, it wasn't like I could be there on a daily basis to hold his hand and nag him to death.) I dearly hope his current girlfriend is on the same level as he is and they can be all happy in a bad situation together.

"As warriors, they take on the entire job them-selves. They become annoyed with others who want to share the responsibility. They want to manage the job on their own because they're afraid the other person will "mess up" — and they won't attain their goal because someone else didn't do their part."

Well, this has been interesting reading. Even if apparently warrior-types are total bloody assholes who run everybody over. (Lovely.) Boy, does this make me NOT want to go seek a partner now!