That's kind of amazing and scary.
Have been reading some posts from a "marley_station" over on the astrology LJ, and dayum. Not in response to me, for the record, but the similarities give me a bit of the wig.
Post #2:"You ask about relationships, so the first thing I do is look for Venus in your chart. I see her there in Pisces, the sign of the martyr, and I notice she is being squared by a Saturn/Uranus team-up in Sagittarius. In a word--ouch!
The alternative, of course, is to remain alone. For a Venus in Pisces native, though, I see that as an equal challenge.
Jontelle, you made a statement that compels me. You stated that you "felt you had a good heart" but that you were "unfit for the worldly." One way to be strong is to know where your limitations lie...you can do yourself and the world a great service by playing to your strengths. In other words, if you feel you are a good person, then do what you can to make the presence of that good person felt, as often as possible, until you are so self-confident that your feelings of unworldliness do little or nothing to affect your self-confidence.
I want to tell you something, Jontelle. I see your Sun in Aries, your Mars in Gemini and your Pluto in Scorpio. Do you know what that tells me? Your instincts are on point--you were never meant to be like everyone else. Sun in Aries makes you a pioneer: independent. Mars in Gemini makes you diverse--you want to do a little of everything, and the universe supports you in this desire! And, most importantly, you have Pluto in Scorpio, conjunct your Scorpio Ascendant. The universe has imbued you with profound power. So much of it that you can't understand it right now, but you will, in time. Ultimately, it means that eventually none of those things that make you feel inadequate now will have much significance.
You are a goddess. Do you know that? You have always been special. It isn't a bad thing. Before too long you will shock yourself at how strong you really are."
Based on that alignment it is my feeling that you are destined to be part of relationships that are inherently unusual, and where your partner is much older and/or an authority figure of some sort. This configuration indicates you are DESTINED to be the submissive in the relationship, and your Venus' placement in Pisces reinforces this notion. You will, in effect, have to give up all that you are and resign yourself to relationships that amount to "controlled chaos".
"The trick is to try to work with the energy of your natality, not against it. When you tried to be domineering, you were keeping in tune with your Pluto conjunct Ascendant, but not with your Saturn/Uranus square Venus. So your results were less than desireable. You stated that you have found yourself becoming more submissive as you get older, and this is probably working better for you. If you are okay with this, so much the better, as it is likely to be the status quo for your romantic life.
When I state that you will have to give up all that you are and resign yourself to relationships that amount to controlled chaos, this is what I mean: Venus in Pisces represents martyrdom for love, meaning that you will have to concede control in the relationship to the other party. Based on the Saturn/Uranus conjunction in Sagittarius, the other party will be an older, eccentric sort. He will likely be of a different race than you and possibly from a different country altogether. Saturn/Uranus also represents the controlled chaos to which I referred, because Saturn has a stabilizing effect on Uranus' energy in this conjunction (which is a good thing, because Sagittarius is a fire sign!).
This doesn't have to be a bad thing. You may decide that you can handle the submissive role quite well; in fact, I'd venture to say that, with your Pluto conjunct Ascendant, it will be more of a case of you letting the other party think he has genuine control because it is what you want, rather than what he wants. At any rate, you will make a fabulous girlfriend. Your Pluto in Scorpio conjunct Ascendant means that you may be sexually uninhibited, which is sure to hold the attention of your dominant partner for a long time!
Your chart bears two stelliums--one in your second house and one in your fifth house. Therefore, these two houses take on the greatest significance in your natality. Saturn in your second house suggests stable income. Uranus there would suggest unsteady income, but since the two planets are in conjunction it is more of an indication of stable income from unusual sources. Neptune in your second house apart from your Saturn/Uranus conjunction there suggests you take caution concerning those unusual or "nebulous" sources of income, that they don't get you into trouble.
Then there's your fifth house, which contains Venus and a Mercury/Jupiter/North Node team-up. This is an indication of gratuitous fertility, in creativity and/or children. If you elect not to have children, they will still be an integral part of your life and may even inspire your creativity. Win, lose or draw, this is most certainly where your karma is; your destiny in this lifetime is linked to children, creativity and other fifth-house issues. With Jupiter there, this is also where your success lives. Your first house Moon in Sagittarius supports this as well."
Bleah."There is a reason you're so comfortable with your South Node placement, and it's because you've already learned that lesson in another existence! Now you have to learn the lesson represented by your North Node placement. You can't escape that lesson!
As I stated earlier, you have to learn to work with the energy of your natality. You are actually fighting yours, and that is retarding your evolution. As you mature, you will understand that better.
There is really no getting around that North Node."
