Venus Saturn vs. Libra North Node = SMACKDOWN!

I don't like to talk too much on here (obviously, I'd rather quote other people!), but I thought I'd give an example of the life of a Venus Saturn person who is technically supposed to be learning how to partner and reach out to other people. In my experience, it just doesn't flipping WORK! I swear, every time I try, the universe smacks my nose with a newspaper and a big scream of NO!.

I have not been having a good time of it emotionally lately. Stuff keeps coming up, such as the big blowup that kicked off Teh Drama. Every time I try to reach out, either someone's too busy, ill, or caught up in their own drama.

• I have desperately wanted to talk to my shrink about this, but she got massively sick on my appointment day and wasn't able to reschedule. I am wondering if she'll be able to do it this week. And either way, next week is a no-go thanks to the fucking 4th of July.
• My mother is alternating between NEEDYNEEDYCLINGCLINGPOUTPOUT behavior and dumping me when a man is around to distract her.
• Friend A has houseguests over and is too busy to talk, and the second the houseguests leave she goes back to summer school and will still be too busy to talk.
  
• Friend B is having Boy Drama combined with Work Drama.
• Friend C has had another Tower-esque week and can barely even talk about the bad shit happening to her once in a while. Definitely not the time for me to say anything else other than to make sure everyone's still alive on her end.
  
• And the rest of my local friend group seems to have disappeared entirely for the moment. Where the heck are they?!
  

And I can't help but notice during the big blowup situation that when someone is on my side, it actually makes things WORSE on me. How tragic is that that in order for me to have an easier time of it, I have to have nobody whatsoever supporting me?

I'm sorry, universe, but if I'm supposed to be learning that lesson, shouldn't I be getting cookies rather than newspaper smackings every time I try to reach out?