I find it ironic that in both astrology (examples here, here, here) and in drawing cards for divination in the last couple of weeks, I keep getting love stuff coming up.
I had an ex who one could not read tarot cards for. He warned me about this beforehand but I gave it a go anyway and found it to be true. He'd get glowingly positive readings and have nothing but shit happen to him. (Indeed, this is pretty much how his life goes, period, whatsoever. Lovely fellow, but he's a total cosmic shit magnet. Proof that a Grand Trine in your chart does not always mean luck.) This is not quite the case for me, except when it comes to love predictions. I have learned over the years not to believe a darned one of them because I seem to be very good at not finding it, regardless of whether or not I try to "get out there." And I've pretty much given up on meeting anyone as long as I live in my current town these days. Which is fine, I'm obviously not in the right mental place for that sort of thing and it's going to take me years to get there.
So mainly I look at all this Venus-Mars stuff and go uh...really? Seriously?
Danger of misjudgment *** Valid during many months: With this influence it is very difficult to know exactly which direction the trends in your life are taking. Thus you must be extremely careful in your guesses, because of the danger of misjudgment. Decisions in general are difficult during this time because you are caught in a conflict between caution and optimism. Whenever one attitude gets the upper hand in your mind, the other comes along and undermines it. Often it seems very difficult to know whether to expand or retrench. This problem will be especially bad if you have overextended yourself in the past and had to cut back. This creates a lack of self-confidence, which may surface now. You may also experience a conflict at this time between the desire for greater freedom and opportunity and the desire to hold on to the safe and predictable circumstances that you are used to. Often the temptation is to break away from everything and start over without the weight of the past holding you back, so you think. The restlessness resulting from this conflict can cause you to make many significant changes in your life, especially about your career. Relationships are also frequently difficult, especially those that involve much responsibility. Casual relationships and friendships are less likely to suffer. However, if you are basically satisfied with your life and you don't feel that your duties and obligations are onerous, you should experience the positive side of this influence, which is actually quite considerable. This is a time when you can expand the structures in your life to include much more than ever before. For example, you could safely expand a business, because your cautiousness during this time will probably prevent you from overextending yourself. Or you could take on more responsibilities, which would make your work more satisfying. Transit selected for today (by user):
Jupiter Opposition Saturn,,
activity period from 21 April 2009 until end of December 2009
Gaining authority *** Valid during many months: This is a time of positive change and opportunity in your life. You have the chance to remake and reform all your relationships so that they will serve your purposes better. You may also change or reform the life of someone close to you, because in all of your relationships you are exerting more power and having a stronger than usual effect upon others. This means that you have great responsibility to use this power well and not just for your own narrow ends. Whatever you do to change the life of another must help them as well as yourself. Contacts with friends and daily associates become more significant at this time. Out of your everyday environment, where you would least expect it, a very intense relationship may emerge that will change the lives of you both. This could be a love affair, but it is more likely to be a powerful friendship. Whatever it is, in this relationship you will encounter each other at a very deep level of emotion. And you will also encounter aspects of yourself that you have kept hidden for years. The most important factor in such a relationship is that it allows you to develop much more of yourself than you have ever known was there. There is as much potential for you to be changed through a significant relationship as there is for you to change a relationship. Under this influence you could gain a position of authority among your fellow workers or among friends, as in a club or social group. The best way to use this power would be as an agent of reform and improvement. Do not use it for purely personal gain, because that could produce disastrous consequences later on. During this period you may have experiences that cause you to change your goals. Circumstances and encounters with other people may force you to reevaluate your ideals, and your life may begin to move in a direction quite different from any that you have followed before. This in turn will allow you to develop more fully and experience life more abundantly. Transit selected for today (by user):
Pluto Sextile Ascendant,,
activity period from beginning of February 2009 until beginning of December 2010
I guess we all have our thoughts on who has a nasty chart. I think mine is pretty nasty what with all the Saturn and the T-square and the feminine planet hammering in it, and the Chiron (if you count in Juno there's yet another T-square there), but I tend to think the two guys I know with heavy oppositions in their charts (one has opposing stelliums, one guy has virtually all of his planets in Aquarius opposing one in Leo) out-nasty mine. And they do have a hard time.
This person has Saturn square Sun, Venus, Ascendant, and Mercury and thinks they have it worst off. Pat's response, however...
Jacy, please pardon my saying so, but this is far from the worst natal chart ever!
I’ve seen many more-challenging ones, starting with my own, which stumped even Rob Hand, arguably the greatest living astrologer on the planet. Not only do I have a fixed T-square in a sensitive spot, but I’ve got a Moon-Saturn square that has manifested in some most unpleasant ways. And just when I thought mine was the “worst ever,” I met a man with not one but two fixed T-squares, one of which virtually ensures that it will be nearly impossible for him to find a fulfilling, intimate relationship with a woman unless he is willing to do a ton of work … and we all know what people with a lot of fixed energy in their charts think about that!
Looking at it another way, “easy” charts aren’t necessarily desirable, either. Typically, people without some challenges in their charts (squares, oppositions, or difficult conjunctions) end up totally overwhelmed in a crisis and can’t cope. People with difficult charts learn to cope early and often, and if we are willing to do the work it takes to overcome these handicaps, we end up much stronger and wiser.
Wow. When Rob Hand freaks out at your chart...I am so wondering what the details of her T-square are now.
People born under the sign of the willow are naturally in tune with the mystic undercurrents of life. It is said their life is full of odd experiences and strange impressions which may explain their sudden mood changes. Though “mercurial” is a word that would characterize their sudden urges to change residences or their frequent inability to settle into a career, the Neptunian character of the Willow personality is clearly evident. With their imagination working overtime, they fret unduly about their health. However, their natural maternal instincts make them protective and resourceful. They are said to make wise parents and counsellors.
Taurus (April 19- May 20)
I have by now mentioned several times that this is the year you engage with your professional aspirations. In my fantasy universe, professional and creative can be different versions of the same idea; though it can take training and adaptation to get them in alignment. It is time to do what you want to do. If it's been a while since that has happened, then consider it time to do what you need to do. Just remember: you're not in this alone. Nobody accomplishes anything brilliant without considerable help. Notice who you vibe with. Notice who nourishes your spirit. Work with them consciously, and celebrate the truth.
Sorta off-topic, but hippie-interest-related... I have been reading (just finished) Callings by Gregg Levoy. Yes, I am feeling something coming on and am baffled/cranky about the whole thing. I don't know, and can't tell, if it is a calling or just me being a needy attention whore. Said desire has been around with me pretty much forever, but I figured I'd grow out of that. Most sane people (oh, wait, I don't count as one of those, do I?) grow out of that attention whore phase of life. They give up on wanting to become a Famous Whatever*, get a boring job, have a family, and that's what makes them happy. Okay, so the family thing wasn't gonna fly with me, but I figured I'd get over the FW urge.
* and I do mean, whatever. It's never been terribly specific as to what field. I have a billion hobbies/fields in the arts and crafts and writing arenas, so uh...specificity would be nice, thanks.
And sadly, no. It has been growing bigger over the last few years, and as I try to tell myself that I should get a more practical profession, something backgroundy and secretarial or whatever, all of me starts whining, "No!" and, well...
God, it's annoying. I never asked for that kind of shit, thanks.
But I went to check Astro-Barry today and what do I find? Something that fits right in. Seriously, if Gregg Levoy ever writes "Callings 2: The Electric Boogaloo Slide" or whatever, here's an easy interview for him. For those of you lucky buggers who are calling-free for the moment, this is pretty much exactly how it goes: (a) intuition says something, without explanation (though Barry clearly has more explanation than most of 'em), (b) human bean is all, "WTF?" and "I don't wanna" and (c) "This is crazy" and (d) "Can't I do something else?" denial and bargaining.
"While in the midst of January-and-February's travels, during which I wondered if I was doing too much and spending too much time away from home, I heard from a powerful intuitive voice. The instructions were specific: I was to go to a certain retreat center in the southern California desert for a set amount of time in March, and it would change my life. Forget that I was already a bit spent from a busy travel schedule—not to mention the money I would have to spend to make this trip, the clients I would need to put off, and the loved ones back home who I'd inconvenience by leaving them to tend to tasks in my absence—but wasn't this a pretty crazy thing to do on a seeming lark, with no direct information about what this place was like or what I was supposed to do there, other than a voice in my head (loud, direct and detailed) telling me to do it?
Needless to say, I didn't decide to obey the intuition right away. My ego-mind instead tried bargaining with the voice. 'Does it have to be this place? Do I have to go for that long? Does it have to be now?' In each instance of me trying to wriggle away from the clear instructions I'd received, I heard the voice kindly but firmly redirecting me to what it had said. I couldn't help but conclude this could be some sort of test (from the universe? from… who, what and where?), to see if I was faithful enough (in who? what?) to follow this other sort of wisdom. In the end, I chose to go.
Now, we could try to dissect what exactly this 'powerful intuitive voice' was. It spoke in an impersonal authoritative tone, in notable contrast to the usual 'voice' with which my mind speaks to me (a much more manic, pushy, desperate reciter of constant things I simply must attend to and areas where I'm clearly falling short)—the sort of voice some frameworks might deem as coming from elsewhere, a divine presence or otherworldly being. And, to be honest, I have heard such voices before. But, on the other hand, we are surely not to publicly discuss 'voices in our heads' that tell us to do things our conscious mind may find a bit risky. Aren't such disclosures an invitation to a padded room with a locked door?"
Amen, brother. I hear that.
In my case, the voice (if there is one, I'm not too auditory so it doesn't happen too often, I am more about the random instinct from nowhere) actually speaks faster in my head than I do. And I'm an ADD type, so that is FAST. It answers before I finish asking the question.
"It is also always possible the 'voice'—any voice—we hear inside ourselves is merely our subconscious speaking up more loudly than usual, in order to override the shoulds and should-nots that contaminate most thinking beings' conscious minds, to allow us access to deeper desires we ordinarily wouldn't seek to satisfy, for wholly 'rational' reasons. We may create alternate personae, full-on personalities based here or in alternate realities in far-off galaxies, just so we might dialogue with these subconscious messages from a safer distance… or for other psychological purposes beyond our understanding. Who knows?
Does it necessarily matter whether the voice is ours or belongs to a non-embodied entity who possesses insightful guidance for us?"
Well, I'd vote yes, because god knows my normal voice isn't necessarily operating from a place of rational sanity all the time.
"The point is that, however or whyever it happens, a voice from within (or from without, but as translated from within) tells us to do something—for our own edification and/or enjoyment—and, so long as it doesn't hurt anyone, we do it. Or at least, in this case, I did.
So I spent two-and-a-half weeks in March at a retreat center in the desert. Oh, by the way, it was a fasting retreat center… which meant that, for 15 days, I consumed no solid food whatsoever. I subsisted on teas, juices, and one mug of single-vegetable-puree soup a day. All the while, I sat in on nutrition classes and participated in other group activities, I walked the desert, I read (a lot!), I conducted healing rituals for myself and, most centrally, I communed with my physical body, with a major focus on detoxing.
I also reached a point of relaxation I hadn't experienced in quite a while… if ever as an adult. But said relaxation did not come without first having to battle against my ceaselessly need-to-be-productive, achievement-driven ego. As part as of its sly game to tempt me into taking this trip to the desert, the 'voice' offered me this addendum while I was trying to squirm out: 'You could even write a whole book while you're there, if you want.' As many of you know, a major life goal of mine is to write books, and I consistently entertain many ripe ideas for novels, memoirs, poetry and essay collections, what-not. And if there's one sure avenue from which to address my needy desire-to-achieve, it's via dangling the lusted-after book in front of my face. So that's how the 'voice' sought to hook me."
scorpio (Oct. 24th-Nov. 22nd)
A rolling stone gathers no moss. Then again, a rolling stone is a pain in the ass to hang around with. You want to watch a movie, they just want to roll down a hill; you want to go to dinner, they just want to roll down a hill; you want to spoon, they just want to roll down a hill. Moss is nice. Moss is soft and green. Moss is comfy to nap on in the woods.
Um, what?!
I'm baaaack. Remember this? Let's quote how I said the rest of my day was going to go, optimistically.
Noon-1: at this point, probably go spin some yarn or something because nobody could go to lunch with me. Sigh.
I am guessing the day will go like this (I'll update it when I return):
1-2: work.
2 p.m. Leave work.
2:10 p.m. Catch bus to Amtrak.
2:15 p.m. Get to Amtrak, get pre-purchased ticket without difficulty, with five minutes to spare before the train shows up.
2:20-3:35: Have pleasant ride on train, where I do more journaling, maybe charge my bracelet, knit, read.
3:35-5-ish p.m. Ride BART. Have pleasant ride where all on BART are sane and calm. (Snerk.)
5-ish p.m. Pick up Mom, go to airport.
5:30 p.m. Arrive at airport. Get tickets and go through security without difficulty.
7:30-8:30ish p.m. Fly on plane. Have calm and pleasant flight.
8:30-9:30ish p.m. Get to eat somehow, get to hotel somehow,
11ish p.m. Eventually go to sleep.7ish a.m. Wake up, get dressed, go Disneyland!
8-12:30 on the 25th: Have fun at Disney!
How did it actually go? I'M GLAD YOU ASKED.
Noon-2 p.m. went as predicted. However...
2:10 p.m. Not only is the bus I need to take the laggiest bus out there...
(okay, pardon my French, and yes, I know I should know better than to say this because I had a disabled parent, and yes I am an ass for saying it)
...a girl in a wheelchair wants to get on the bus. It takes them a long-ass time to operate the lift to get anybody on there. And the bus went very slowly from there and stopped at every stop.
I was supposed to get to the train station at 2:15. I got there at oh, 2:23. AND THE TRAIN WAS ALREADY IN THE STATION. Early?! Amtrak showed up EARLY?! Since when, and WTF? We all run into the station and the people behind the desk are all, "Just run out there and get on the train, they legally have to let you on and buy a train ticket on the train." We run out there and the conductors scream at us, "You can't get on without a ticket!" We explain what the guys inside said, I show them my reservation slip, they pretty much tell us to fuck off, and of course they don't wait around for you to buy a ticket before taking off. Early.
We go back in, and the people behind the desk are all, "Yeah, we should report those guys" and one chick demands a phone number to complain to.
The next train does not leave until 3:50. I attempt to get my prepaid tickets, only to find out that since the train left, my reservation was deleted. I have to go buy another ticket. Then I call my mother (who I knew was going to yell at me for this, and she did) and she's all, "Go buy a ticket to Oakland and I'll just meet you there instead of in Pleasanton."
Yes, that's right, I had to buy THREE tickets.
Naturally, I was quite pissed off by this point and thinking, "Well, there goes my year, doesn't it? Something shitty had to happen."
At 3:50, I get on another train and have a peaceful, uneventful experience. I get picked up at 5:30 in Oakland and find out that... had I made the 2:25 train and made it onto BART, I was going to have to transfer around Bay Fair...right when a fire broke out there. Odds are I wouldn't have made my flight had I ended up stuck there. I ran into some girl at the airport later who probably barely made her flight because of BART lagging due to it, and she hadn't even been at Bay Fair. (Also amusing: I found out that they locked down my work during the last hour of the day due to protesters or something. Missed that too!)
So, moral of the story: shitty cosmic fuckery happens...and it turned out to have saved my ass and my flight. So, in cosmic terms, does that mean I get canned or something else bad happens and then I get saved from worse assfuckery? Probably, right?
Anyhoo, got through the airport and flight without incident, arrived at the hotel around 9ish, had a relaxing night, went to bed early, got up early and had lots of Disney fun, even though we ended up missing the shuttle over to Disney from the hotel (could NOT get Mom to leave the room before 7:33 and the shuttle left at 7:35...figured) and ended up walking over instead. But no biggie.
So, going off the prediction thing:
7:30-9:30 a.m. = April 24-May 24: Quiet and uneventful.
9:30-11:30 a.m = May 24-June 24: Quiet and uneventful.
11:30-1:30 p.m. = June 24-July 24: I make yarn, otherwise quiet and uneventful.
1:30-3:30 p.m. = July 24-August 24: And here's where I presumably have a very rough time during the summer.
3:30-5:30 p.m. = August 24-September 24: And here's where I get back on track, and find out that my rough time saved my ass from worse things happening. Huzzah.
5:30-7:30 p.m. = September 24-October 24: I travel successfully.
7:30-9:30 p.m. = October 24-November 24: I travel successfully.
9:30-11:30 p.m. = November 24-December 24: Kick back and relax, go to sleep.
11:30-1:30 a.m. = December 24-January 24: Sleeping, so evidently this period is very boring :)
1:30-3:30 a.m. = January 24-February 24: Ditto.
3:30-5:30 a.m. = February 24-March 24: Ditto, except for bathroom break :P
5:30-7:30 a.m. = March 24-April 24: Get up and get ready to go out and have fun.
So...rough summer, according to this, but it might all be for the best. Hopefully. Gulp.
I'm so biased in posting about this.
People born under a Full Moon are generally very “you-me” oriented–drawn to partnerships almost as if to play out their own inner drama. This inner drama involves a struggle between two very different (opposite) natures represented by the Sun and Moon signs. What they feel they want, and what they feel they need, are often at odds. A long time ago, I read an astrology book (and I can’t remember which one) that stated that there are more people than average with Full Moons in their natal charts whose parents divorced. While this is not necessarily the case, experience has shown me that people born under a Full Moon perceive their parents to have very different (opposite) personalities and/or their parents gave them two distinctly different (opposite) messages growing up. Whether or not this was the case literally speaking, this is how the Full Moon person perceived the situation, and generally grew up struggling with two different “scripts”. Indecision is often a problem. Projection is often a problem as well. Guilt can be a big issue. Feedback that I have received, with my Virgo Sun in opposition to my Pisces Moon, has been on the lines of “I am never sure who I am going to meet”, but only from people who know me intimately. It should be noted that Full Moon people are rarely dramatic in the expression of these two different natures, likely because opposite signs do share common ground. These “opposite” signs, unlike side-by-side signs or signs in quincunx, share the same mode (cardinal, fixed, mutable) and masculine/feminine nature. Generally the struggle is expressed mostly on the inside and with close partners.
Those born under a Full Moon are learning about themselves through their close partnerships, and they need partners who want to be part of that process. If you’re the type of person who prefers to let things be, a Full Moon person might drive you a little nuts! They are very sensitive to fluctuations and potential conflicts in their relationships. It’s not that they are conflict-oriented exactly–in fact, their ultimate goal is to make peace–but they are constantly trying to find a healthy balance. It’s a very Libran type of energy. In fact, people born under Full Moons, even in the absence of any planets positioned in Libra, possess distinctly Libran traits in both their attraction to (or dependence upon) partnerships and their sensitivity to imbalance. Full Moon babies are negotiators and go-betweens.
People born under a Full Moon generally have a hard time deciding what it is they really want and need. Needless to say, it can be very challenging for their partners to know how to satisfy them! However, the positive side to the story is that Full Moon babies are generally very accommodating and willing to try to make things work. (And they’re usually a lot of fun!)
So I decided to get a solar return chart done at Cafe Astrology- the Merriman version with predictions attached. I figured "going to a pro" might be better than how my own analysis came out.
And man, that thing scared me. Now, I'm not all OMG TWELFTH HOUSE NOOOOOOOOOOO the way a lot of other people are- my chart ruler's in the 12th and it makes me interested in probing around in psychology and paranormal stuff and that's it. I still don't think I'm going to prison, thanks. Heck, the one guy I know who did go to prison and I have his chart doesn't have anything in there. (This fellow's mom let me listen to the astrologer CD she got made for him and the lady predicted prison for him due to his addictions...I still want to know what she saw that indicated it to her.) I tend to think of it more like "hey, here's fun things to probe."
But the sheer number of times the report said, GO SOMEWHERE ELSE I'M SERIOUS GO GO GO DO NOT BE HOME AT RETURN TIME NOOOOOOOO kind of pissed me off. My SR time was at 7:30 a.m., for fuck's sake, where was I going to go when I had to work till late last night? And even had I fled to the Bay Area (where I fly out of later), that still isn't far enough away to count. Sheesh.
So, anyway, the analysis:
Cadent Houses: Your solar return chart shows a majority of planets in the cadent
houses. This suggests a year of flux as far as your affairs in the world are concerned.
NO surprise there, I guess.
Well, yes, that was my plan. Y'know, to come up with a plan.
This is moreso the case if you also have Mutable signs on any angles in this chart. It may also
indicate a year of mental activity and preparation for something in your future (beyond
the current year). You may end up viewing this as a year of "training," apprenticeship, or
some sort of preparation for another phase soon to appear in your life.
I DID want to work on special mental projects, thank you.
Many of your plans will likely change, and you might not feel so much in control as usual, but if you
are adaptable (and conditions will be such that this is advised), then many favorable
alternatives to your current approach to life will arise. If, on the other hand, you are not
adaptable, then this situation generally indicates a year of irritation and frustration, for all
significant affairs which you enter into seem to be with others who are uncooperative, or
with unstable situations over which the you have little control. Unless you wish to work
on special mental projects, a majority of planets posited in the solar return cadent houses
is not the most favorable condition.
I dunno, eleventh and tenth are pretty emphasised in this one too.
All cadent houses are the twelfth house of the angular
house which follows. Hence an overriding majority of planets here can suggest the
undoing of your former and current efforts (shown by angular houses).
Not happening.
With this set-up
(unless there is some sort of balance shown elsewhere, or else a writing project is
contemplated), you might seriously consider traveling elsewhere for your solar return
event, somewhere that will move the majority of planets out of the cadent houses, and
perhaps into angular houses (i.e. eastward).
I was going to anyway.
It is also advisable to make
time available for meditation or daily contemplation during this year if you decide to
keep this chart, i.e. not travel elsewhere for your birthday.
And all of that sounds good to me.
At best, the majority of planets in your cadent houses favors writing, teaching, and
traveling ventures. It could indicate favorable legal matters, depending upon which
planets are in or rule your ninth house. It may also indicate many experiences of
inspiration, and even moments of a joyful outpouring of bliss (compassion) for others. It
could be a time of great spiritual awareness.
That...would be typical me, though.
At worst, it suggests you have a great desire
for change, but no real change is effected. It is thus a potentially restless period in which
your direction in life is not very clear. It may also correlate to illness, possibly induced
by psychological stress. You are advised to watch your diet carefully, and stay with an
exercise program.
The Sun, at the time of your solar return, falls in the 12th house.
12th house: During this year, you may identify yourself closely with efforts behind
the scene, or out of the public's eye. The year favors charity and volunteer work. It may
also favor rest, relaxation and seclusion, as it may signify a withdrawing phase of your
life. It may be beneficial for work with institutions, or even psychic development and
meditative pursuits. It favors research and doing activities by oneself, and out of the
limelight.
However you may experience feelings of vague apprehension and self-doubt. If
planets herein are not favorable by aspect and you fail to utilize proper care, then it may
mean hospitalization, imprisonment or confinement of some kind. This is not the most
desirable house to find a majority of solar return planets, or the Sun, unless the favorable
goals listed above are of great value to you at the moment.
Well, the psychic and meditative stuff, research, and activities alone are all good by me.
Natal Moon on the 7th house cusp:
This denotes where many changes -- and hence, events -- may occur for you during
this year. This is an area where you may have great needs, especially emotionally. Your
public image for the year may be effected by circumstances that unfold in this area of
life. It also indicates the areas of life in which you may form significant relationships
(intimate ones) for the year. It can indicate a potential partnership or marriage in that area
of life during the year. It may also indicate an area of life where dependencies upon, or
with, other people may form, and these dependencies may not be healthy for you if a high
degree of trust is not present. Personal qualities exhibited in this area of life are sensitive,
caring, emotional, and perhaps fickle and restless.
Hmmmmm. Not sure. Kind of sounds good, but my mom is a natal moon on 7th cusp person and the needy is annoying. Don't want to act like that.
Sounds good!
Natal Mercury on the 12th house cusp:
This denotes an area of life in which correspondence, writings, business deals and
transactions, signing of papers, and areas of current mental or intellectual interests may
lie this year. It describes the areas in life in which you may make deals. New ideas may
be expressed or learned here. In addition, you may be of service to others in this area of
life. It is in these areas that you may be called forth to deal with younger people. In short,
this is where a great deal of your mental energy is spent in the next year, and where
communications skills come in very handy. It presents ample opportunities for learning.
The qualities exhibited in this area of life are intelligence, knowledge, communicative but
perhaps critical skills.
Again, sounds good.
Natal Venus on the 1st house cusp:
Relationships, love matters, romantic interests, compatibility and harmony with
others is highlighted in this area of your life. It shows an area where you may experience
popularity, as well as favorable developments in finances, valuables, and possessions. It
denotes where you may exhibit good taste -- or style -- for the current year. It shows
where you may find compatibility or acquire something of value. It also denotes the areas
in which others are likely to show favor to you. It may be that you find things which are
pleasing to your nature, i.e. a sense of beauty, in this area of life. It may indicate areas
wherein you come across artistic and creative, or meet such types. More significantly it
will show where you can make contacts -- and the types of contacts -- that you may use
later on, either for yourself personally, or to function as a mediator or go-between for
others. The qualities you tend to exhibit in this area of life are graciousness, diplomacy,
sociability, and possible stubbornness, jealousy, and possessiveness.
Hmm. I wish that was on the 10th rather than 4th. I don't give a crap about new stuff at home.
Natal Mars on the 4th house cusp:
These are areas of life where you are likely to initiate new ventures. These are areas
where you may initiate a pioneering spirit and eagerness to try new things, and if
favorably placed and aspected, then success is very possible; if afflicted, then you must
guard against an over-impulsive nature which could lead to failure of pursuits. This is an
area of great motivation and activity -- an arena of "action." It also denotes where you
tend to be competitive, or meet with competition from others. Furthermore, this shows
where you are likely to experience discordance with others, and possibly engage in
quarrels or disputes. It may be wise to utilize great caution and self-control in these areas
and relationships ruled by these areas, as you may tend to be over-impulsive and rash
here. The qualities you tend to exhibit in this area are assertive, competitive, driven, but
perhaps argumentative and pushy.
And that's a giant "oh shit." More of those to come...
Natal Pluto on the 6th house cusp:
This is an area in which you may experience potential greatness and/or may influence
others with considerable power. It is an area in which things, matters, and people may be
eliminated, removed, terminated, or at least transformed. It is an area that may require
many reforms and major changes within your life flow. This is an area that may describe
your relationship to, or position within, groups. It may describe your relationship to other
people's assets and values. Oftentimes, something "dies" here, something is taken from
the life here, or at least threatened with termination or removal in some way. A healing
may be necessary in this area of life during the course of the year in question. The
qualities you tend to exhibit are intensity, deep, profound and powerful, but perhaps
obsessive and coercive, pertaining to this area of life.
Again, wish that was on the other side.
Natal Midhvn. on the 4th house cusp:
This is an area where you may accomplish great tasks. It is a special area wherein lies
a sense of personal destiny and unfoldment during the forthcoming year, an area of great
expectation, where a great degree of professionalism may be both developed and
expressed. It is an area in which you may have to deal with superiors, but if adequately
prepared, rewards may result. There is a sense of challenge, and "work to be done" in this
area.
Okay, I wouldn't mind if that panned out. The computer thing is probably true because my machines are due to all die this year (they all go every 4 years within a few months of each other and my PDA already went this month).
Return Uranus Sextile Ascendant (Orb: 2°30')
Uranus in harmonious aspect to horizon: This is a year of unexpected and pleasant -
even marvelous - surprises. Your charisma and personal magnetism, whether mental or
physical, is extremely high. As such, many new people and new ideas are attracted to
you. It is a year favoring new and exciting romances - a very "hot" year. It is also a year
of many ingenious new ideas. You are incredibly inventive, and able to apply new
thoughts to old problems, thereby coming up with wonderful new solutions. You may
feel very youthful and vigorous. Romantic liaisons with people much younger than
yourself could happen, or at least with people who turn you on to new ways of looking at
things, or even people who you turn on to new ways of looking at things. This year favors
purchase of new computers or software, and a new "you", a new style.
Natal Uranus Square Midheaven (Orb: 8°32')
Uranus in discordant aspect to meridian: There is danger of suddenly losing your
position this year. Circumstances may arise quite suddenly - without if any preparation
on your part - and cause you to shift your focus 180 degrees. These circumstances may be
out of your control - a new boss, a new owner of the company. Or they may be a result of
decisions you made that may have been off the mark. You may feel like taking risks, but
this signature does not favor positive results from taking such risks. Do not go against
company policy, or the law, or outside of your normal "bounds." If in business for
yourself, this may not bode well for taking on new products. It may be better to stay with
the tried and true this year, and not try to be so innovative and progressive. Important
work or family contacts may end this year, quite unexpectedly. You are susceptible to
making quick and not very-well-thought-out decisions, such as quitting work. Better
think twice before acting upon such major decisions. This set up portends some difficult
conditions during the year.
Another eeeeek.
And then there's something like this and I am all, wait, which one what now?
Natal Pluto Trine Midheaven (Orb: 8°30')
Pluto in harmonious aspect to meridian: This year it is possible for you to work with a
large and powerful group of people. You yourself may be given, or find yourself in, a
position of great influence. With this position, you may have the power to change things -
to improve conditions - for the better. The result could be a substantial increase in profits
(in business) or value/net worth (personal). Any research or investigation efforts you are
involved in may turn up a bonanza. This is a year of discoveries, and they prove to be
very valuable to you personally. Perhaps they result in a favorable legal, contractual or
insurance settlement. Or perhaps they just give you the clout or insight you need to
successfully finish projects you have been working on.
Then comes the Legion of Shit...
Two things that stand out in this overall: (a) "good love year!" and (b) "you're gonna get canned." Well, the latter wouldn't surprise me if it happened in 2010. I think I am probably okay for this one but not the next one. Hence my "oh shit, must plan" panic on this blog. As for good love year...well, this being me, I will probably manage to be as usual despite that, somehow. I know that's negative thinking, but I somehow never manage those.
Eighth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
This may be a year of financial stress. Moneys owed to you cannot be collected. Or,
you may have loans outstanding which you find hard to repay. In addition, there may be
conflicts between what you really want to do, and the demands and obligations you feel
others make upon you. Be careful of a tendency to blame them for your present status.
You do have a choice, and you are making it. Affairs may end this year, perhaps against
your will. You may be the subject of a power play, so know your enemies (if there are
any), and get them to put all the cards on the table. What you don't want is someone
undermining you without your knowledge. For that matter, someone may be investigating
you or your background without your permission. There may be problems with taxes,
insurance claims, and estate matters. In addition, sexual activities may be unsatisfying, or
lead to problems. Be cautious and discerning now.
Tenth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
You are likely experiencing conflicts with regard to your profession. Is this what you
really want to do? Or would you prefer doing something else? The trouble is, it may not
be a favorable time for changing. Conflicts with superiors may arise, and if you are not
careful, this could result in job loss. It may be time to closely examine what you are
doing, and what your real goals in life are. If one does not support the other, it may be
time to start exploring other options that will bring you back into harmony with your own
sense of destiny and purpose in life. To continue in your present path may result in much
frustration, and the feeling that "time is passing me by."
Eleventh house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
This year you may encounter power plays in groups. These power plays cause you to
examine your motives and reasons for being in the group. Are you there for the personal
glory it may bring, or because you believe in its objectives and goals? Conflicts with
friends may also unfold, and you are encouraged to be sensitive to their needs (or they to
yours). Otherwise you may lose a close friend.
Twelfth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
In retrospect, you may look back and wonder if you lost this year. It may have been a
year of much promise, but nothing happened. This is moreso perhaps if planets in the
twelfth house afflict the ruler of the Ascendant. The signatures suggest the possibility of
unfavorable dealings with institutions like jails, prisons, hospitals, and other places of
confinement. You worst enemy may be the fears inside of your own mind. One's dreams
may be very disturbing, and it wise not to engage in over active fantasies and unrealistic,
delusional, thinking
Two more things, (c) you may figure things out, but probably not, (d) well, writing and learning could go well. But otherwise, you suck, I guess. Sheesh.
A final note from the report...
Keeping a Diary of Your Solar Return Experience
The moments of these experiences and these interactions with others during the solar
return day can be progressed into the future of this year. Basically the premise is this:
whatever you experience during the solar return day will symbolically represent the
nature of your experiences during the solar return year. Furthermore, the time of these
experiences - whether external or internal - will relate to a specific period in the year
when that "symbolism" will likely repeat. The formula is the same as used in the
calculation of the solar return Moon. That is, every two hours of time from your solar
return represents one month of time from the date of your solar return. In the same token,
approximately every four minutes of time is the equivalent of one day in the solar return
year.
Therefore it can be very enlightening to carry paper and pen with you on the day of
your solar return. Mark down the time in which things happen during this day. In fact,
you may want to keep a very detailed daily record of what happened as it goes along. It is
also a good idea to plan things during the day which you know will be favorable and
enjoyable, as that will set the tone of a favorable and enjoyable activity later on this year.
To briefly illustrate, let us assume your solar return occurs at 6:00 PM. At 8:00 PM,
the circumstances that you experience (in the external world, or your interior world) will
be symbolic of what is going on in your life about one month after your birthday. If you
went out and had a wonderful dinner with someone you love, then perhaps one month
later you will find your life very wonderful, almost like being out for a wonderful dining
experience.
The daily record should begin six hours before your solar return, and continue 30
hours afterwards. The six hours before are symbolic of the three months leading up to
your birthday. Even these events and circumstances are symbolic of what you have
already gone through, and seeing the symbolism helps put the recent past into
perspective. The six hours following the 24 hours of the birthday are also important.
They refer to the momentum of this year carrying into the next solar return, and your
ability to make the successful transition from one year's issues to the next.
Well, okay, let me write this down:
2:30 a.m. In bed, asleep.
5:15 a.m. Wake up in a panic because I have a lot of stuff to get done today before I leave the house. Which is to say, I want to do a new moon manifestation goal bowl AND make some paper beads with my intentions written within them AND perhaps do some journaling AND recharge a bracelet of mine. But 5:15 is still too early to start that shit. I go online and catch up on Savage Love instead.
6:15 a.m. Uh, maybe I should get moving now.
6:15-7 a.m.: Write down my goals, write them down in journals, write them in the paper beads (pre-cut), roll them up, glue beads together, seal them with nail polish, grab some hemp to string them on... I don't get to the recharging.
7-7:35 a.m.: Get dressed, do the bathroom thing, repack my stuff a little, shut down the computer. Exact solar return happens.
7:38-7:45 a.m. Go wait at bus stop. Notice it is ironically chilly (it was hot two days ago). Decide that maybe I should wear real boots for the next 3 days rather than sandals, run in and grab some shoes and socks. Return just in time to catch bus, huzzah.
8 a.m.-noon: sit around at work, listen to people bitch about how the building smells, listen to other people having a meeting, find a bug in the system that they already knew about, look up horoscopes, listen to podcasts, work on work stuff in between all of the above due to ADD brain-hopping.
Noon-1: at this point, probably go spin some yarn or something because nobody could go to lunch with me. Sigh.
I am guessing the day will go like this (I'll update it when I return):
1-2: work.
2 p.m. Leave work.
2:10 p.m. Catch bus to Amtrak.
2:15 p.m. Get to Amtrak, get pre-purchased ticket without difficulty, with five minutes to spare before the train shows up.
2:20-3:35: Have pleasant ride on train, where I do more journaling, maybe charge my bracelet, knit, read.
3:35-5-ish p.m. Ride BART. Have pleasant ride where all on BART are sane and calm. (Snerk.)
5-ish p.m. Pick up Mom, go to airport.
5:30 p.m. Arrive at airport. Get tickets and go through security without difficulty.
7:30-8:30ish p.m. Fly on plane. Have calm and pleasant flight.
8:30-9:30ish p.m. Get to eat somehow, get to hotel somehow,
11ish p.m. Eventually go to sleep.
7ish a.m. Wake up, get dressed, go Disneyland!
8-12:30 on the 25th: Have fun at Disney!
Let's hope my list matches reality :)
