11 posts tagged “eclipse”

I keep forgetting to post this.

"eclBut my dirty little secret was that I’d become a musician not just for the satisfaction of self-expression, but because I was a social misfit without a lot of other options. Unlike the girls who hung around backstage at the clubs where my band played, who traveled in tight, homogeneously attractive groups, I didn’t fit in. And to be honest, I envied – still envy – women who "fit in." Even now I often feel out of place at a bridal shower or girl’s night out.

Those of us with untapped Aquarius energy wander through life feeling as though we missed school on the very important day when social networking skills were taught. Humans are social animals, and it’s threatening to be unable to find a place in one’s pack. We’re hard-wired to crave the very Aquarian experience of belonging. But if fitting in means surrendering the ideas, gifts, and self-expression that are uniquely ours, our Leo selves insist that it’s too dear a price to pay.

As it turned out, not fitting in has proved to be one of my greatest blessings. I remember thinking early on that if I couldn’t fit in, I’d damn well make the best of standing out. So I gave myself over completely to music and later to writing, and in the end, a wonderful thing happened: By standing out, I somehow managed to find my place – to find love, acceptance, and friendship on my own terms.

Every now and then, the odd Uranus transit or progressed planet in Aquarius gives me a taste of what it’s like to simply, effortlessly, belong – to take enjoyment and energy from social connections. But when the transit passes and I return to the social wilderness, I don’t mind. There are creative treasures to be found there. I find myself there.

When eclipses fall in Aquarius and Leo, we’ve been asked to remember what kind of fuel powers the engine of our hearts - and to seek our place in the hearts of others."

The Aquarius one was conjunct my Juno,  the Leo one today(ish?) is conjunct my dreaded Saturn.

So far, nothing Juno/home related has gone on, I am still hardly home anyway. And I was about to go, "eh, nothing's gonna happen on the other one either."

Oh. Wait. Don't I have that conference this weekend? Talking about Saturn?

*faceplant*

Not my chart, but similar.

"Michele, with several planets in Leo, your Ascendant in Scorpio, and Mars in Taurus on the Descendant, you are a strong fixed-sign person. I am, too, and so I can sympathize with where you are right now.

The fixed signs - Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius - can be difficult to work with, because they are stubborn and immovable. The flip side is that they are stable, reliable, and durable. We can carry burdens that would break others. Of course, that can mean we get a heavier load in life, too.

Leo and Aquarius are being impacted heavily right now due to a series of eclipses in these two signs that began this past February and will run until August 2009. To a lesser degree, Scorpio and Taurus also are being impacted (along with Scorpio and Taurus Rising). Since you are a Rising Scorpio, you are getting hit doubly hard. I don’t doubt that you are tired. I am, too! But hang in there, because you are being offered an opportunity to transform, grow, and evolve. Unfortunately, this never happens without a certain amount of pain.

Simultaneously with the eclipses, we are experiencing an opposition of Saturn and Uranus. These two patterns don’t seem to be related, but they are linked in an indirect way. I bring this up, because Saturn currently is moving through your tenth house of career and is transiting your lunar North Node in Virgo. The North Node often indicates our “mission” in life, so I feel fairly sure that you are about to find it.

Your challenge, as I see it, is that you have a lot of “self-oriented” Leo energy in your chart, while your North Node in Virgo indicates that your life’s work is about service to others. You will have to find a balance that allows you to fully express who you are while also serving humanity."

Here.

The opposition aspect brings awareness. Visually, you can see that a Full Moon is illuminated. Yet during an eclipse, this awareness is temporarily obscured, because the Earth comes between the Sun and Moon. The light disappears. What happens to our emotions (Moon) when this happens?

The opposition also symbolizes a breaking point, when you must make a decision. Further commit to a path/relationship, or separate from it? You may be able to see more clearly now what to do, but the decision feels so life-changing that you don't quite feel in control of the matter. Whatever has come to a head feels almost destined. (The Nodes are like knots that tie people together.)

The Leo-Aquarius polarity concerns the needs of the individual versus the needs of the collective. Being fired up about one's creative potential versus experiencing life from a detached perspective.

This Lunar Eclipse occurs at 24 degrees Aquarius at 5:16pm EDT on Saturday. If you have angles or personal planets around this degree area in Taurus, Leo, Scorpio or Aquarius, this eclipse could have a strong impact. If you don't know your chart but your birthday is around this date, the same goes for you!

My Saturn's in Leo at 23 degrees, Venus is in Taurus at 27. Erk.

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The coming Solar Eclipse will have a very significant impact on us all. All eclipses shut something down, taking away elements of our lives no longer "true" for us. Leo is the sign of personal love, creativity, self-dramatization, and our heart-felt pleasures. Thus a form of these will be shut down, with the void sure to attract new forms of expressing this energy. Wherever this eclipse falls in our charts is where we can expect long term endings, but also relief, transfiguration, and the joy of knowing we've made it through the night.

Erk. It's on my midheaven.

This could feel something like reuniting with someone we hadn't spoken to in years — feeling ecstatic, insecure and in pain with poignancy. We may over-worry or over-analyze. I think these are signs of love; let's try to leave it at that. There may be some issues of who is playing the father roll. There may also be growth spurts in babies, teens, pregnancies, relationships and with grandparents, too. It may feel awkward as we get to know each other in our advanced states of change; it may be unbearable to wish we hadn't worried for so long.
With North Node and Chiron conjunct in Aquarius, it is possible now to find a sense of resolve around dull yet excruciating pains which lingered in our tribe over decades. Issues we may have thought were hopeless can take a turn now. The next time Chiron is conjunct North Node will be in 2024, when Pluto is entering Aquarius. The comfort we may find with newly defined families or close circles could well play important rolls in our lives for the course of Pluto in Capricorn.

Sun in Fixed Signs–Because this eclipse involves stress aspects from the Sun, Moon, and Mercury in Leo to Jupiter in Capricorn, your responsibilities and obligations overtake your need for self-expression, especially for Leos, but also for the other fixed signs. It is as if you are not seen, not heard and your feelings in the matter don’t seem to count. This is a time to go inward to grasp the heart of the matter while you work through your day-to-day activities. Perhaps this is the time when you decide that certain things just aren’t worth the stress of trying to work them through. Maybe you’ll consider a change of venue in this aspect of your life. Regardless, it won’t be until the first of next year when you can actually enact any changes, which can be frustrating when you are itching to act.

"In a session with a client the other day, she asked me if I saw her moving any time soon.  She really wanted to move from where she was, and she was hoping that was indicated in her chart somewhere."

I hear that. Well, moving along with something in general, if not specifically the town I live in. (On my list of places to live, the town I am in is #3. That ain't bad. Especially since locations #2 and #1 are incredibly beyond expensive.)

But I do want to do...something. And I somehow absolutely cannot budge myself to do a damn thing. Oh, the joys of being doubly fixed. My poor lone Sag moon wants ouuuuuuuuut and the Taurus and Scorpio axis emphasis does not allow escape. I'm a chaos magnet, but in the last year and a half, my lightning-rod-ness has dwindled down to some degree. I'm used to lightning making decisions for me. And it seems like without being forced to because something blew up, I can't make myself do squat.

Then again, this could also be because I am also so sick of things exploding around me that I don't want to deliberately cause more unpleasant upset in my life. Then again, I'm unable to even go for PLEASANT upset.

So, what's the issue with this? Is it fixable?

Sometimes we have planetary events that clearly indicate a change is coming: for example, when transiting Uranus (radical change and innovation) crosses over the Midheaven/Nadir axis (cusp of the fourth house of home and tenth house of career).  Twice a year or so transiting Mars will cross that point, stimulating the desire for some sort of change.  But change is not always seen as just an event triggered by a planet; it is often the result of an activated Will that occurs after a longer-term cycle.

Yeah, so far this isn't panning out for me.

This client had what I like to call a "Mars Problem" in her chart, with Mars in the twelfth house, where it operates in the subconscious realms, and stressed by both Saturn (limitation and challenge) and Chiron (wounding and healing).  Mars acts as the Will of our personal self; in many ways it is our Free Will.  Mars is our desire nature; it shows how we go about getting what we want and keeping what we have and in that role it also shows how well we set boundaries and defend ourselves.  When Mars is stressed in the chart we have difficulty in all of these areas and our Free Will loses its functionality as a result.  Sometimes we can feel paralyzed, not knowing where to turn.

My Mars is hammered:

Mars Conjunct Midheaven  
Sun Square Mars  
Mars Square Ascendant  
Mars Square Uranus  
Moon Trine Mars  
Mercury Trine Mars  

Some good aspects, but enough hard ones in there probably drone that out. I can't help but think the Mars square Uranus might translate into "big changes = trouble for you." And the fact that it's on the MC and squared by the axis is not good either. Sheesh, and Saturn's not even involved in that.

In the case of my client, she was in a longer-term cycle of Uranus transiting through the tenth house which had caused her to leave her job and pursue a series of other opportunities.  She didn't feel that any of them were right for her but judged herself for wanting yet another change.  Because her Mars, her own inner direction of Free Will, was challenged in the birthchart it was difficult for her to feel safe in her choices.

We don't always get to exercise our free will, and we don't always get what we want as the Rolling Stones so aptly put it many years ago.  Sometimes our individual will (Mars) is blocked by the gods in the form of Saturn (restrictions) or Pluto (transformation) and in those cases fate takes over and all we can do is surrender.  But we still must exercise that free will or it will become atrophied and useless.

Exercising our free will and empowering our Mars is as easy as this:  Ask yourself, what is it you WANT to have happen.  And then DO IT!

*sigh*

Somehow JUST PICK AND DO IT!!!!!!!!! sounds a whole lot easier to say than to do. I can't help but think that if I make a choice and go after it, I'm just putting up the lightning rod and asking God to strike me down somehow. No wonder I can't do shit.

The upcoming solar eclipse will be landing on my MC (where the natal Mars is) on August 1. Hm. I wonder if that will help do...well, anything.

Given my username and all...well, I sure do like them moons. I went to an eclipse-watching party and had a good time.
Anyhoo, none of us had a decent enough camera to take pictures of it, but happily, there's always the Internet. Just thought I'd post 'em.

P.S. my userphoto features a much less clear eclipse that occurred on my birthday.

Another dose o' astro-poetry!

WHY PEOPLE LOSE THEMSELVES IN MOVIES AND MUSIC
(ANDSOMETIMES OTHER THINGS)
sometimes it's hard to get satisfaction
and gratification
relationships are disappointing
you feel rejected
deals fall through
people burn bridges
there are even tragic separations
what's up with these ferocious attachments and why?
There are a million things in this galaxy you can have
and a million things you can't have
and when you start obsessing over the things you
DON'T have,
you get in trouble.
When you start hungering for what ISN'T
or what CAN'T BE
at least for now
you do go a little crazy
and you start displacing your frustration and anger
all over the place
and you try to find a spot to put your
confusion or sense of deprivation and rejection
Why the hell do you think I wrote SUNSHINES?
Absolutely true
Because when deep emotions take over
and your yearning for satisfaction
is not answered
no amount of rational explanation
seems to help
you can talk to yourself until you're blue in the face
but that desperate yearning still gnaws at you
and the only antidote is to turn away from it
and find within yourself
the strength
not to give in to an old addiction
the addiction to chasing
things that probably won't bring you happiness anyway
at least not right now
there is, however, a place you can turn to
that is where you should be
where you will find peace
from chaotic emotions
but you have to surrender first
do you know how to surrender?
You ask for help
from the Universe, or God
or the Force
or whatever it is
that binds all life together
Don't laugh.
Thats' why I wrote SUNSHINES
Happy Eclipse
we live on two levels at once
especially this weekend during this eclipse
there's the ideal world of fantasy and romance
and music and spiritual freedom, enlightenment and fulfillment
and then
there's reality
getting up and going to work, digestive problems,
and the drudgery of the everyday grind
so when your expectations and yearnings
come crashing against the harshness of the world we live in
it is bound to be

sunday
now look at what happened
what you did and
how you sought to alleviate your anxiety
put something in place so you wouldn't be
alone or hungry or rejected
it was a ritual
a habit
some automatic response you have
driven by unconscious needs
to relieve the pressure of your real life
and keep away your fears of being
denied gratification
and
then what
now you just go on
not quite the same as you were before
although something you cannot deny is over
is over
a line is drawn between today and yesterday