8 posts tagged “solar return”

Posted late, I just want to bookmark this for the birthday stuff.

I'm baaaack. Remember this? Let's quote how I said the rest of my day was going to go, optimistically.

Noon-1: at this point, probably go spin some yarn or something because nobody could go to lunch with me. Sigh.

I am guessing the day will go like this (I'll update it when I return):
1-2: work.
2 p.m. Leave work.
2:10 p.m. Catch bus to Amtrak.
2:15 p.m. Get to Amtrak, get pre-purchased ticket without difficulty, with five minutes to spare before the train shows up.
2:20-3:35: Have pleasant ride on train, where I do more journaling, maybe charge my bracelet, knit, read.
3:35-5-ish p.m. Ride BART. Have pleasant ride where all on BART are sane and calm. (Snerk.)
5-ish p.m. Pick up Mom, go to airport.
5:30 p.m. Arrive at airport. Get tickets and go through security without difficulty.
7:30-8:30ish p.m. Fly on plane. Have calm and pleasant flight.
8:30-9:30ish p.m. Get to eat somehow, get to hotel somehow,
11ish p.m. Eventually go to sleep.

7ish a.m. Wake up, get dressed, go Disneyland!
8-12:30 on the 25th: Have fun at Disney!

How did it actually go? I'M GLAD YOU ASKED.

Noon-2 p.m. went as predicted. However...

2:10 p.m. Not only is the bus I need to take the laggiest bus out there...

(okay, pardon my French, and yes, I know I should know better than to say this because I had a disabled parent, and yes I am an ass for saying it)

...a girl in a wheelchair wants to get on the bus. It takes them a long-ass time to operate the lift to get anybody on there. And the bus went very slowly from there and stopped at every stop.

I was supposed to get to the train station at 2:15. I got there at oh, 2:23. AND THE TRAIN WAS ALREADY IN THE STATION. Early?! Amtrak showed up EARLY?! Since when, and WTF? We all run into the station and the people behind the desk are all, "Just run out there and get on the train, they legally have to let you on and buy a train ticket on the train." We run out there and the conductors scream at us, "You can't get on without a ticket!" We explain what the guys inside said, I show them my reservation slip, they pretty much tell us to fuck off, and of course they don't wait around for you to buy a ticket before taking off. Early.

We go back in, and the people behind the desk are all, "Yeah, we should report those guys" and one chick demands a phone number to complain to.

The next train does not leave until 3:50. I attempt to get my prepaid tickets, only to find out that since the train left, my reservation was deleted. I have to go buy another ticket. Then I call my mother (who I knew was going to yell at me for this, and she did) and she's all, "Go buy a ticket to Oakland and I'll just meet you there instead of in Pleasanton."

Yes, that's right, I had to buy THREE tickets.

Naturally, I was quite pissed off by this point and thinking, "Well, there goes my year, doesn't it? Something shitty had to happen."

At 3:50, I get on another train and have a peaceful, uneventful experience. I get picked up at 5:30 in Oakland and find out that... had I made the 2:25 train and made it onto BART, I was going to have to transfer around Bay Fair...right when a fire broke out there. Odds are I wouldn't have made my flight had I ended up stuck there. I ran into some girl at the airport later who probably barely made her flight because of BART lagging due to it, and she hadn't even been at Bay Fair. (Also amusing: I found out that they locked down my work during the last hour of the day due to protesters or something. Missed that too!)

So, moral of the story: shitty cosmic fuckery happens...and it turned out to have saved my ass and my flight. So, in cosmic terms, does that mean I get canned or something else bad happens and then I get saved from worse assfuckery? Probably, right?

Anyhoo, got through the airport and flight without incident, arrived at the hotel around 9ish, had a relaxing night, went to bed early, got up early and had lots of Disney fun, even though we ended up missing the shuttle over to Disney from the hotel (could NOT get Mom to leave the room before 7:33 and the shuttle left at 7:35...figured) and ended up walking over instead. But no biggie.

So, going off the prediction thing:
7:30-9:30 a.m. = April 24-May 24: Quiet and uneventful.
9:30-11:30 a.m = May 24-June 24: Quiet and uneventful.
11:30-1:30 p.m. = June 24-July 24: I make yarn, otherwise quiet and uneventful.
1:30-3:30 p.m. = July 24-August 24: And here's where I presumably have a very rough time during the summer.
3:30-5:30 p.m. = August 24-September 24: And here's where I get back on track, and find out that my rough time saved my ass from worse things happening. Huzzah.
5:30-7:30 p.m. = September 24-October 24: I travel successfully.
7:30-9:30 p.m. = October 24-November 24: I travel successfully.
9:30-11:30 p.m. = November 24-December 24: Kick back and relax, go to sleep.
11:30-1:30 a.m. = December 24-January 24: Sleeping, so evidently this period is very boring :)
1:30-3:30 a.m. = January 24-February 24: Ditto.
3:30-5:30 a.m. = February 24-March 24: Ditto, except for bathroom break :P
5:30-7:30 a.m. = March 24-April 24: Get up and get ready to go out and have fun.

So...rough summer, according to this, but it might all be for the best. Hopefully. Gulp.

So I decided to get a solar return chart done at Cafe Astrology- the Merriman version with predictions attached. I figured "going to a pro" might be better than how my own analysis came out.

And man, that thing scared me. Now, I'm not all OMG TWELFTH HOUSE NOOOOOOOOOOO the way a lot of other people are- my chart ruler's in the 12th and it makes me interested in probing around in psychology and paranormal stuff and that's it. I still don't think I'm going to prison, thanks. Heck, the one guy I know who did go to prison and I have his chart doesn't have anything in there. (This fellow's mom let me listen to the astrologer CD she got made for him and the lady predicted prison for him due to his addictions...I still want to know what she saw that indicated it to her.) I tend to think of it more like "hey, here's fun things to probe."

But the sheer number of times the report said, GO SOMEWHERE ELSE I'M SERIOUS GO GO GO DO NOT BE HOME AT RETURN TIME NOOOOOOOO kind of pissed me off. My SR time was at 7:30 a.m., for fuck's sake, where was I going to go when I had to work till late last night? And even had I fled to the Bay Area (where I fly out of later), that still isn't far enough away to count. Sheesh.

So, anyway, the analysis:

Cadent Houses: Your solar return chart shows a majority of planets in the cadent
houses. This suggests a year of flux as far as your affairs in the world are concerned.

NO surprise there, I guess.

This is moreso the case if you also have Mutable signs on any angles in this chart. It may also
indicate a year of mental activity and preparation for something in your future (beyond
the current year). You may end up viewing this as a year of "training," apprenticeship, or
some sort of preparation for another phase soon to appear in your life.

Well, yes, that was my plan. Y'know, to come up with a plan.

Many of your plans will likely change, and you might not feel so much in control as usual, but if you
are adaptable (and conditions will be such that this is advised), then many favorable
alternatives to your current approach to life will arise. If, on the other hand, you are not
adaptable, then this situation generally indicates a year of irritation and frustration, for all
significant affairs which you enter into seem to be with others who are uncooperative, or
with unstable situations over which the you have little control. Unless you wish to work
on special mental projects, a majority of planets posited in the solar return cadent houses
is not the most favorable condition.

I DID want to work on special mental projects, thank you.

All cadent houses are the twelfth house of the angular
house which follows. Hence an overriding majority of planets here can suggest the
undoing of your former and current efforts (shown by angular houses).

I dunno, eleventh and tenth are pretty emphasised in this one too.

With this set-up
(unless there is some sort of balance shown elsewhere, or else a writing project is
contemplated), you might seriously consider traveling elsewhere for your solar return
event, somewhere that will move the majority of planets out of the cadent houses, and
perhaps into angular houses (i.e. eastward).

Not happening.

It is also advisable to make
time available for meditation or daily contemplation during this year if you decide to
keep this chart, i.e. not travel elsewhere for your birthday.

I was going to anyway.

At best, the majority of planets in your cadent houses favors writing, teaching, and
traveling ventures. It could indicate favorable legal matters, depending upon which
planets are in or rule your ninth house. It may also indicate many experiences of
inspiration, and even moments of a joyful outpouring of bliss (compassion) for others. It
could be a time of great spiritual awareness.

And all of that sounds good to me.

 At worst, it suggests you have a great desire
for change, but no real change is effected. It is thus a potentially restless period in which
your direction in life is not very clear. It may also correlate to illness, possibly induced
by psychological stress. You are advised to watch your diet carefully, and stay with an
exercise program.

That...would be typical me, though.

The Sun, at the time of your solar return, falls in the 12th house.
12th house: During this year, you may identify yourself closely with efforts behind
the scene, or out of the public's eye. The year favors charity and volunteer work. It may
also favor rest, relaxation and seclusion, as it may signify a withdrawing phase of your
life. It may be beneficial for work with institutions, or even psychic development and
meditative pursuits. It favors research and doing activities by oneself, and out of the
limelight.
However you may experience feelings of vague apprehension and self-doubt. If
planets herein are not favorable by aspect and you fail to utilize proper care, then it may
mean hospitalization, imprisonment or confinement of some kind. This is not the most
desirable house to find a majority of solar return planets, or the Sun, unless the favorable
goals listed above are of great value to you at the moment.

Well, the psychic and meditative stuff, research, and activities alone are all good by me.

Natal Moon on the 7th house cusp:
This denotes where many changes -- and hence, events -- may occur for you during
this year. This is an area where you may have great needs, especially emotionally. Your
public image for the year may be effected by circumstances that unfold in this area of
life. It also indicates the areas of life in which you may form significant relationships
(intimate ones) for the year. It can indicate a potential partnership or marriage in that area
of life during the year. It may also indicate an area of life where dependencies upon, or
with, other people may form, and these dependencies may not be healthy for you if a high
degree of trust is not present. Personal qualities exhibited in this area of life are sensitive,
caring, emotional, and perhaps fickle and restless.

Hmmmmm. Not sure. Kind of sounds good, but my mom is a natal moon on 7th cusp person and the needy is annoying. Don't want to act like that.

Natal Mercury on the 12th house cusp:
This denotes an area of life in which correspondence, writings, business deals and
transactions, signing of papers, and areas of current mental or intellectual interests may
lie this year. It describes the areas in life in which you may make deals. New ideas may
be expressed or learned here. In addition, you may be of service to others in this area of
life. It is in these areas that you may be called forth to deal with younger people. In short,
this is where a great deal of your mental energy is spent in the next year, and where
communications skills come in very handy. It presents ample opportunities for learning.
The qualities exhibited in this area of life are intelligence, knowledge, communicative but
perhaps critical skills.

Sounds good!

Natal Venus on the 1st house cusp:
Relationships, love matters, romantic interests, compatibility and harmony with
others is highlighted in this area of your life. It shows an area where you may experience
popularity, as well as favorable developments in finances, valuables, and possessions. It
denotes where you may exhibit good taste -- or style -- for the current year. It shows
where you may find compatibility or acquire something of value. It also denotes the areas
in which others are likely to show favor to you. It may be that you find things which are
pleasing to your nature, i.e. a sense of beauty, in this area of life. It may indicate areas
wherein you come across artistic and creative, or meet such types. More significantly it
will show where you can make contacts -- and the types of contacts -- that you may use
later on, either for yourself personally, or to function as a mediator or go-between for
others. The qualities you tend to exhibit in this area of life are graciousness, diplomacy,
sociability, and possible stubbornness, jealousy, and possessiveness.

Again, sounds good.

Natal Mars on the 4th house cusp:
These are areas of life where you are likely to initiate new ventures. These are areas
where you may initiate a pioneering spirit and eagerness to try new things, and if
favorably placed and aspected, then success is very possible; if afflicted, then you must
guard against an over-impulsive nature which could lead to failure of pursuits. This is an
area of great motivation and activity -- an arena of "action." It also denotes where you
tend to be competitive, or meet with competition from others. Furthermore, this shows
where you are likely to experience discordance with others, and possibly engage in
quarrels or disputes. It may be wise to utilize great caution and self-control in these areas
and relationships ruled by these areas, as you may tend to be over-impulsive and rash
here. The qualities you tend to exhibit in this area are assertive, competitive, driven, but
perhaps argumentative and pushy.

Hmm. I wish that was on the 10th rather than 4th. I don't give a crap about new stuff at home.

Natal Pluto on the 6th house cusp:
This is an area in which you may experience potential greatness and/or may influence
others with considerable power. It is an area in which things, matters, and people may be
eliminated, removed, terminated, or at least transformed. It is an area that may require
many reforms and major changes within your life flow. This is an area that may describe
your relationship to, or position within, groups. It may describe your relationship to other
people's assets and values. Oftentimes, something "dies" here, something is taken from
the life here, or at least threatened with termination or removal in some way. A healing
may be necessary in this area of life during the course of the year in question. The
qualities you tend to exhibit are intensity, deep, profound and powerful, but perhaps
obsessive and coercive, pertaining to this area of life.

And that's a giant "oh shit." More of those to come...

Natal Midhvn. on the 4th house cusp:
This is an area where you may accomplish great tasks. It is a special area wherein lies
a sense of personal destiny and unfoldment during the forthcoming year, an area of great
expectation, where a great degree of professionalism may be both developed and
expressed. It is an area in which you may have to deal with superiors, but if adequately
prepared, rewards may result. There is a sense of challenge, and "work to be done" in this
area.

Again, wish that was on the other side.

Return Uranus Sextile Ascendant (Orb: 2°30')
Uranus in harmonious aspect to horizon: This is a year of unexpected and pleasant -
even marvelous - surprises. Your charisma and personal magnetism, whether mental or
physical, is extremely high. As such, many new people and new ideas are attracted to
you. It is a year favoring new and exciting romances - a very "hot" year. It is also a year
of many ingenious new ideas. You are incredibly inventive, and able to apply new
thoughts to old problems, thereby coming up with wonderful new solutions. You may
feel very youthful and vigorous. Romantic liaisons with people much younger than
yourself could happen, or at least with people who turn you on to new ways of looking at
things, or even people who you turn on to new ways of looking at things. This year favors
purchase of new computers or software, and a new "you", a new style.

Okay, I wouldn't mind if that panned out. The computer thing is probably true because my machines are due to all die this year (they all go every 4 years within a few months of each other and my PDA already went this month).

Natal Uranus Square Midheaven (Orb: 8°32')
Uranus in discordant aspect to meridian: There is danger of suddenly losing your
position this year. Circumstances may arise quite suddenly - without if any preparation
on your part - and cause you to shift your focus 180 degrees. These circumstances may be
out of your control - a new boss, a new owner of the company. Or they may be a result of
decisions you made that may have been off the mark. You may feel like taking risks, but
this signature does not favor positive results from taking such risks. Do not go against
company policy, or the law, or outside of your normal "bounds." If in business for
yourself, this may not bode well for taking on new products. It may be better to stay with
the tried and true this year, and not try to be so innovative and progressive. Important
work or family contacts may end this year, quite unexpectedly. You are susceptible to
making quick and not very-well-thought-out decisions, such as quitting work. Better
think twice before acting upon such major decisions. This set up portends some difficult
conditions during the year.

Another eeeeek.

Natal Pluto Trine Midheaven (Orb: 8°30')
Pluto in harmonious aspect to meridian: This year it is possible for you to work with a
large and powerful group of people. You yourself may be given, or find yourself in, a
position of great influence. With this position, you may have the power to change things -
to improve conditions - for the better. The result could be a substantial increase in profits
(in business) or value/net worth (personal). Any research or investigation efforts you are
involved in may turn up a bonanza. This is a year of discoveries, and they prove to be
very valuable to you personally. Perhaps they result in a favorable legal, contractual or
insurance settlement. Or perhaps they just give you the clout or insight you need to
successfully finish projects you have been working on.

And then there's something like this and I am all, wait, which one what now?
Then comes the Legion of Shit...

Eighth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
This may be a year of financial stress. Moneys owed to you cannot be collected. Or,
you may have loans outstanding which you find hard to repay. In addition, there may be
conflicts between what you really want to do, and the demands and obligations you feel
others make upon you. Be careful of a tendency to blame them for your present status.
You do have a choice, and you are making it. Affairs may end this year, perhaps against
your will. You may be the subject of a power play, so know your enemies (if there are
any), and get them to put all the cards on the table. What you don't want is someone
undermining you without your knowledge. For that matter, someone may be investigating
you or your background without your permission. There may be problems with taxes,
insurance claims, and estate matters. In addition, sexual activities may be unsatisfying, or
lead to problems. Be cautious and discerning now.
Tenth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
You are likely experiencing conflicts with regard to your profession. Is this what you
really want to do? Or would you prefer doing something else? The trouble is, it may not
be a favorable time for changing. Conflicts with superiors may arise, and if you are not
careful, this could result in job loss. It may be time to closely examine what you are
doing, and what your real goals in life are. If one does not support the other, it may be
time to start exploring other options that will bring you back into harmony with your own
sense of destiny and purpose in life. To continue in your present path may result in much
frustration, and the feeling that "time is passing me by."
Eleventh house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
This year you may encounter power plays in groups. These power plays cause you to
examine your motives and reasons for being in the group. Are you there for the personal
glory it may bring, or because you believe in its objectives and goals? Conflicts with
friends may also unfold, and you are encouraged to be sensitive to their needs (or they to
yours). Otherwise you may lose a close friend.
Twelfth house planets in discordant aspect to rulers:
In retrospect, you may look back and wonder if you lost this year. It may have been a
year of much promise, but nothing happened. This is moreso perhaps if planets in the
twelfth house afflict the ruler of the Ascendant. The signatures suggest the possibility of
unfavorable dealings with institutions like jails, prisons, hospitals, and other places of
confinement. You worst enemy may be the fears inside of your own mind. One's dreams
may be very disturbing, and it wise not to engage in over active fantasies and unrealistic,
delusional, thinking

Two things that stand out in this overall: (a) "good love year!" and (b) "you're gonna get canned." Well, the latter wouldn't surprise me if it happened in 2010. I think I am probably okay for this one but not the next one. Hence my "oh shit, must plan" panic on this blog. As for good love year...well, this being me, I will probably manage to be as usual despite that, somehow. I know that's negative thinking, but I somehow never manage those.
Two more things, (c) you may figure things out, but probably not, (d) well, writing and learning could go well. But otherwise, you suck, I guess. Sheesh.

A final note from the report...

Keeping a Diary of Your Solar Return Experience

The moments of these experiences and these interactions with others during the solar
return day can be progressed into the future of this year. Basically the premise is this:
whatever you experience during the solar return day will symbolically represent the
nature of your experiences during the solar return year. Furthermore, the time of these
experiences - whether external or internal - will relate to a specific period in the year
when that "symbolism" will likely repeat. The formula is the same as used in the
calculation of the solar return Moon. That is, every two hours of time from your solar
return represents one month of time from the date of your solar return. In the same token,
approximately every four minutes of time is the equivalent of one day in the solar return
year.
Therefore it can be very enlightening to carry paper and pen with you on the day of
your solar return. Mark down the time in which things happen during this day. In fact,
you may want to keep a very detailed daily record of what happened as it goes along. It is
also a good idea to plan things during the day which you know will be favorable and
enjoyable, as that will set the tone of a favorable and enjoyable activity later on this year.
To briefly illustrate, let us assume your solar return occurs at 6:00 PM. At 8:00 PM,
the circumstances that you experience (in the external world, or your interior world) will
be symbolic of what is going on in your life about one month after your birthday. If you
went out and had a wonderful dinner with someone you love, then perhaps one month
later you will find your life very wonderful, almost like being out for a wonderful dining
experience.
The daily record should begin six hours before your solar return, and continue 30
hours afterwards. The six hours before are symbolic of the three months leading up to
your birthday. Even these events and circumstances are symbolic of what you have
already gone through, and seeing the symbolism helps put the recent past into
perspective. The six hours following the 24 hours of the birthday are also important.
They refer to the momentum of this year carrying into the next solar return, and your
ability to make the successful transition from one year's issues to the next.

Well, okay, let me write this down:

2:30 a.m. In bed, asleep.
5:15 a.m. Wake up in a panic because I have a lot of stuff to get done today before I leave the house. Which is to say, I want to do a new moon manifestation goal bowl AND make some paper beads with my intentions written within them AND perhaps do some journaling AND recharge a bracelet of mine. But 5:15 is still too early to start that shit. I go online and catch up on Savage Love instead.
6:15 a.m. Uh, maybe I should get moving now.
6:15-7 a.m.: Write down my goals, write them down in journals, write them in the paper beads (pre-cut), roll them up, glue beads together, seal them with nail polish, grab some hemp to string them on... I don't get to the recharging.
7-7:35 a.m.: Get dressed, do the bathroom thing, repack my stuff a little, shut down the computer. Exact solar return happens.
7:38-7:45 a.m. Go wait at bus stop. Notice it is ironically chilly (it was hot two days ago). Decide that maybe I should wear real boots for the next 3 days rather than sandals, run in and grab some shoes and socks. Return just in time to catch bus, huzzah.
8 a.m.-noon: sit around at work, listen to people bitch about how the building smells, listen to other people having a meeting, find a bug in the system that they already knew about, look up horoscopes, listen to podcasts, work on work stuff in between all of the above due to ADD brain-hopping.

Noon-1: at this point, probably go spin some yarn or something because nobody could go to lunch with me. Sigh.

I am guessing the day will go like this (I'll update it when I return):
1-2: work.
2 p.m. Leave work.
2:10 p.m. Catch bus to Amtrak.
2:15 p.m. Get to Amtrak, get pre-purchased ticket without difficulty, with five minutes to spare before the train shows up.
2:20-3:35: Have pleasant ride on train, where I do more journaling, maybe charge my bracelet, knit, read.
3:35-5-ish p.m. Ride BART. Have pleasant ride where all on BART are sane and calm. (Snerk.)
5-ish p.m. Pick up Mom, go to airport.
5:30 p.m. Arrive at airport. Get tickets and go through security without difficulty.
7:30-8:30ish p.m. Fly on plane. Have calm and pleasant flight.
8:30-9:30ish p.m. Get to eat somehow, get to hotel somehow,
11ish p.m. Eventually go to sleep.

7ish a.m. Wake up, get dressed, go Disneyland!
8-12:30 on the 25th: Have fun at Disney!

Let's hope my list matches reality :)

"The soldier and Vid have their birthdays this week and I always pay mind when the solar returns come in because invariably there is an event right away that sets the tone for the year ahead.

As an example, last year the soldier quit his job unexpectedly, 2 days after his birthday which brought him home full time.  Wham! New situation.
This year both men are gone. Vid is on a class camping trip, the soldier is on the road and I am painting the house while they are gone.  The change will be dramatic because satori picked the color and she has taste. There will be a whole new tone, they’ll be shocked."

Heh. I'm going to be gone starting midday-ish to go to SoCal for the weekend myself. My mom has been ragging on me for being responsible and working my volunteer job last night instead of taking off to go to her house. Since we don't leave until tonight, it seemed kind of silly, plus I'd have to make up the hours when I don't have the time to do it in this quarter. Though apparently according to my solar return I REALLY SHOULD HAVE GONE ANYWHERE BUT HERE THIS MORNING. (But more on that later.) Is there a Taurean travel theme going on this week? But anyway, this gives me time to check the astro-blogs before I take off :)

This seems like a lot of effort to me. Then I thought, "Hey, wait, aren't I planning on going out of town on mine this year? I wonder where I'll be?" (Then I found that mine would be at 7:30 a.m. this year and thought, "Never fucking mind. I'll still be home getting ready for work.")

Mine this year has almost every planet above the horizon except for Saturn in the fifth. Blech.

Interesting points:

• Taurus ascendant right on my natal Venus.
• Mercury is right on the solar return chart ascendant.
• Sun and Moon are loosely conjunct in different signs (Aries moon this year).
• All of that stuff is in my 12th...sigh.
• Venus and Mars are conjunct in the 11th in Aries again.
• For once, Venus and Saturn are not tied in the chart. Yay.
• 10th house has Neptune/Chiron/Jupiter conjunct. That conjunction is sextile the moon.
  
• Pluto is off by itself in the 8th, trine Sun...yeah, BAD. And squares the Venus/Mars.
• SR nodes are conjunct the MC/IC axis.
• SR moon is opposite SR vertex (not pictured)
  

Strange year, I think.
Let's go to Cafe Astrology...

In Taurus, domestic issues and finances will be on your mind. This is a year of overall stability. Your approach to life is markedly conservative and practical. You are resistant to making big changes, and you are skeptical of new initiatives. You are generally content to leave things as they are, and you are not inclined to seek out brand new experiences (or people!). Inertia and resistance to making changes may characterize the period. You have the power to attract this year, especially through patience. You may also feel the need to have more beauty in your life, via your surroundings and perhaps with regards to a desire to improve your appearance.

Weekly horoscope:

Taurus (April 19-May 20)
Having faith in the gift you give the world is a mature state of mind, not, as many fear, being "egotistical." You may not be able to see it now; there is a slowly developing quality to your chart in this one respect, but when a breakthrough arrives, it arrives at full strength. What occurs this weekend is the latest in a series of developments that is doing no less than setting you free to be yourself. This may be the very thing you fear the most: exercising your prerogative to exist as the very person you are, entirely outside the bounds and limits that as a child were set on your creativity and bliss.

Scorpio (Oct. 23-Nov. 22)
Those born under your sign are typically too conservative to express their full potential in the world. Though few would associate Scorpio with any kind of reticence or prolonged hesitation, I don't need to convince you. But what I may need to convince you of is that the idea that is currently exploding in your heart and soul, and moreover the feeling of freedom that is coming with it, is something to mount like the white tiger and ride like the master you are. You have not waited this long merely to remain pure of heart, or to live a life unsullied by ever having made the wrong choice. There was a time when you used to love making mistakes, because they were proof that you were trying passionately. But that is who you are, not who you were.

From the same link:

By Priya Kale with Eric Francis
 
You are on a compelling journey of self-discovery right now. That curiously too hot to handle sensation you feel is probably deep passion coupled with insatiable desire to break free from all that has long held you back. You are a Taurus and needless to say, change is something that doesn't happen overnight for you. But whether you realize it or not, your inner blacksmith has been at hard at work, and likely what seems so sudden and immediate has been in the fire and on the anvil many times before.
 
The changes you are going through may seem jarring, but the process is both structured and synchronized with your greater good. So far as I can tell, you are at the stage of mental assessment. Even where your feelings are concerned, you are more inclined to size them up like the balls on a billiard table than to sense your inner reality like a poet or painter. This will work well for now; soon enough, you will be at the point where you can feel the necessity for change, your desire for change, and moreover your true need for nourishment -- something that will gently guide all Taureans as Venus enters Cancer in a short time.
 
Questioning your previously unchallenged assumptions about your relationships and what you want from them has been a long, winding road. It has come with unexpected losses and gains; you have made some choices, both easy and difficult; but as time is working out, you are actually able to concede the point that you not only want different things from your emotional experiences than you did over the past couple of years, but that you have actual needs. Those needs are one thing when assessed with your brain and another thing when assessed with your heart and soul. Be aware of the difference.
 
The unfolding scenario is offering you options you had never even considered or imagined available. The inner conflict you are currently enduring is enabling you to confront yourself in a constructive way -- rare for a Taurus -- and also creating sufficient heat and friction that your ego defenses are being melted away in the process. That, in turn, will make it obvious that you can let go of some of your emotional defenses, and open up where it comes to actually expressing your deeper feelings to others, not merely what you felt yesterday.
 
A mighty alignment of planets, and two odd points called the lunar nodes, have been involved with all this progress. The alignment involves Mars and Uranus in Pisces, now conjunct; Vesta and Jupiter in Sagittarius, also conjunct; and your ruling planet Venus moving through Gemini. Peeling back a layer or two, we have a setup describing a huge upheaval over what is really important to you. You seem to be going to and fro on a series of questions that on one level appear to be a mental debate. What is happening could be more accurately described as this. You are in an unusually flexible state of mind. You are, at the same time, coming under the influences of people and events that are actually getting you to question your values. You are actually re-evaluating your life, and you have -- for the moment -- the impetus to change.
 
In this whole scenario, you are signified by Venus in Gemini. While you may feel like you're getting tossed around like a pith ball, the fact is that Gemini gives you the power of decision, and it gives you the ability to suspend your security-seeking nature for a while. I suggest you make decisions that you will feel compelled to stick to in your less secure or more sentimental moments.
 
We could analyze the whole paradox of your life with one quick comment: you try to think with your feelings. Feelings are good; feelings are important; but feelings do not allow the luxury of logic, or of cool assessment that allows for the experience of secure, sane and rational choices. It does not take much observation of the human race to see that when things go forward for us, they go forward because we make decisions. Even when "things just happen," such as a flood, a UFO encounter or meeting someone you really like, that is an opportunity for decision.
 
Imagine the cosmos is a huge game, and the only way to move through the layers of the game is to decide things. When you stop moving, you have stopped deciding; when you resume motion, you have resumed the process of making decisions.
 
You clearly have options that are confusing you now. They seem to be "six of one and half a dozen of the other." But it is not an even dozen; rather, it's a baker's dozen, so six is not enough. You have sufficient basis for the decision you are trying to make; I suspect that up until this point, the real issue has been one of lacking confidence. And that, I trust, is a think, or rather, a thing of the past.

I just think it's a cool idea. Anyway, I'm off researching this again (beats doing the Sunday cleaning) and was reading this site and found...

In solar return figures, Henson has found that aspects, but most especially conjunctions, of the Vertex to both solar return and natal planets will frequently bring, in the year to follow, significant 'life-altering' events of the nature of the planets involved, often as expressed through their solar return houses.

Naturally, I had to check this shit out.

And my 2007 solar return chart? Venus conjunct Vertex, baby.

Actually, this site is pretty good as well:

"We see the trine of SR Venus to SR Mars, which is a signature aspect for a romantic encounter during the year. In fact her natal Venus is also closely trine SR Mars. Her natal Moon in the 5th is, however, opposed by Uranus, showing a tumultuous situation in one romance. Neptune's input by its position on the 11th house cusp indicates the dissolution of a friendship. Lilith in the 5th is another indicator of a disruption in this area and agreement comes from the T-square between Sun, Jupiter and Mars. However, she also has her natal North Node in the SR 5th, so there's promise of a timely and destined meeting. Uranus in the 11th presents fresh new opportunities and the trine of Sun to Saturn and to Uranus suggests that a more promising and stable romance is simply delayed and may come into her life at an unexpected moment. Realizing that she'd recently entered a relationship with all the earmarks of disaster, Linda took the initiative to dissolve that romance herself, now fortified with the patience to allow a relationship with an even newer and more promising acquaintance to develop at a natural pace as she handles more serious priorities."